the honeymoon stage

Barely two months into the relationship, and it all seems so ethereal. I catch myself often, trying to cushion the future by saying miguel and I are in a honeymoon stage -- a stage of romanticism so to speak --- just to somehow condition myself in the unfortunate event of a more settled in and rather detached arrangement in the future.

But as each day spent with him passes, I ask, "who am I kidding?" To pre-empt these things is unfair to that mysterious thing called love. Perhaps it comes with trauma or personal defense mechanisms. But, really, why the need to make assumptions so early on in the game? After all, I am enjoying every minute of the present, and are harboring no regrets. For all we know, this honeymoon stage might turn out to be more than a stage but a constant state of mind. [Secretly hoping it does.. wait, not so secret anymore! Hehe.]

Extremely optimistic and warm and fuzzy right now, while listening to Sugarfree's Makita Kang Muli. Beautiful, life is. :)